Things need to change in my life starting with me. I have
been so closed off for whatever reason to the fact that the issues I have in my
life come from me and start from me. It’s so easy to blame other people or to
blame life for handing you a shitty deal but fact is complaining will not turn
things around, only you have the power to do that.
Somewhere along the way I changed and it wasn’t positive
change. I have fallen into a sinkhole and I have just let it swallow me without
putting up a fight. I did however express myself but it was in such an
unhealthy and harmful way that I hurt not only myself but the person I care
most about.
The saddest part is that I don’t know 100 percent what is wrong but
I just know that I’m not me.
Life can be amazing and that’s how I saw it. I use to find
the beauty in even the smallest and simplest of things but now I just see the negative.
I dislike so much what I have become that I need to get help before I lose
everything for good. I need to get help because I miss my life. I need to get help because I need her.
