I really want to write something right now and it’s a tad difficult and super annoying as I have a band aid on my rude finger due to my awesome cat which I rely heavily on when typing (my finger not my cat just to clear up any animal cruelty concerns you might have had!) Boom! Got you all figured out already wise guy lol sorry I am sick so I tend to be a bit of a loopy weirdo. Bear with me.

Anyways I think for the sake of letting my flow. Well flow, I will take the band aid off just for now.

Okay………………. Done!

So what I thought of today was “is it really worth it” I hope my direction here is clear because I sometimes get myself into situations either innocently or not and immediately my heart knows it’s not worth it to continue but my ego or pride or whatever my stubbornness wants to be called just won’t shut the fuck up.

Example:  My girlfriend and I might be having a little disagreement and in true female form we both think that we are right, one thing leads to another and things get a lot more heated than they should. I recall so many times while in these situations thinking to myself “is it really worth it?” I look at her and she’s upset or angry or whatever it may be and I’m like I love this person what am I doing. I look at her and I think I just don’t want to be wasting anytime arguing when all I really want to do is grab her, pull her into me and kiss her. So I try to push down my ego walls but my girlfriend just isn’t the type that can flick to being affectionate in 0.2 seconds like I am, dilemma I know! Anyway I think I need to find a strategy that allows me to not let things get to the point where my girlfriend doesn’t want to be affectionate with me because 1. I work a lot. 2. She’s beautiful and I’d much rather be all cheddar with her. And 3. Who the hell want’s to argue?

So I hope you were all paying attention and understood the point I was trying to make even though it was possibly lost amongst all that dribble. Sorry about that. (Another fact is I talk a lot of crap)

I have a motor mouth with a delay on my brain issue.

Now this isn’t something new that I am just realizing I just never really thought of it as being that big of a deal. My dad use to call me a chatterbox as a kid and through my teens I guess people thought I was a bit simple lol. I just want to say that just because you talk a lot and things don’t always come out right it doesn’t make you stupid. I mean I know that I’m not the most intelligent person out there but I am by no means stupid and I really don’t like that word especially to place it onto a person.

I really don’t know how to best describe it… Um.  It’s like my brain is working at two different stages. On one stage my thoughts pop in super quickly and then my mouth just goes but it’s before my brains second stage has had the chance to process things and put it correctly. Confusing you? Yep don’t worry I think I just confused myself lol. Grrr I wish you all just magically know what I mean and you know what, I’m just going to assume that you do. Yay!

Okay so I hope to really work on this issue when in certain situations, basically to avoid getting myself in further trouble ha ha

Any questions, suggestions or impute of any kind would be appreciated. Peace! ✌

P.S Band aid back in position…